We've Gone too far

I should get stronger.

I feel addicted.

I want to feel wanted.

So i was reading someones blog and it made me realize
what kind of shit I’m in. Its so immature but yet so true.
She doesn’t want to let anyone go for her own selfish
reasons. She wants the option. She wants everything.
Not saying every girl is like her, but she should let me
try to forget, and her boyfriend shouldn’t have the three
of us hangout. I watched this guy do a slam poetry about love
and i agree. I rather get a ass whoopin’ that get my heart
broken.

so i’ve decide to try and sign up and be an EMT.

im going to take the CNA test so i can help my parents care home.

and im going to sign up for chaminade, UHM and KCC for nursing T_T

hope i get in this time.

So i haven’t post yesterday’s blog but thats okay cause i feel everything is going back to the way it was before Marisa. boring. -_- haha well the bright side is that i’m back on my feet.

Missing yesterday excitement, i was playing airsoft on a military base which was extreme? because you would believe how amazing it was. @_@ there was a shit load of building. felt like a real war zone plus with real gun firing in the area added to the effect. After the intense playing, we ate at maui mikes which had some ono chicken. ^-^ and the cashier was very cute. :)

Thats pretty much what happen yesterday and today was like…chill? nothing exciting except the fact it reminded how much fun i have when i’m single. :) haha i cant wait till i find that special girl. i wanna treat her right and this time im not going to give a damn what anybody says cause either way…they should support me.

As much as i suck at these i would like to try it next month cause that is my month. which happens to contain my birthday. :)

Day 01 - Your current relationship, if single discuss how single life is.

Day 02 - Where you’d like to be in 10 years.

Day 03 - Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 04 - Your views on religion.

Day 05 - A time you thought about ending your own life.

Day 06 - Write 30 interesting facts about yourself.

Day 07 - Your zodiac sign and if you think it fits your personality.

Day 08 - A moment you felt the most satisfied with your life.

Day 09 - How you hope your future will be like.

Day 10 - Discuss your first love and first kiss.

Day 11 - Put your zune on shuffle and write 10 songs that pop up.

Day 12 - Bullet your whole day.

Day 13 - Somewhere you’d like to move or visit.

Day 14 - Your earliest memory.

Day 15 - Your favorite tumblrs.

Day 16 - Your views on mainstream music.

Day 17 - Your highs and lows of this past year.

Day 18 - Your beliefs.

Day 19 - Disrespecting your parents.

Day 20 - How important you think education is.

Day 21 - One of your favorite shows.

Day 22 - How have you changed in the past 2 years?

Day 23 - Give pictures of 5 females who are famous who you find attractive.

Day 24 - Your favorite movie and what it’s about.

Day 25 - Someone who fascinates you and why.

Day 26 - What kind of person attracts you.

Day 27 - A problem that you have had.

Day 28 - Something that you miss.

Day 29 - Goals for the next 30 days.

Day 30 - Your highs and lows of this month